What sensation do you associate with tears? For me, I remember a tightening in my chest and brows as I try to stop what’s already happening. Because of chronic pain (and just being an emotional human), I cry a lot – in doctors’ offices, while walking down the street, even the occasional puddle of tears on the 1 train heading uptown.
One day, while taking The Class with Soeuraya, I felt unexpected tears forming. I squeezed my sinuses to dam the water, then realized in my quarantine bubble no one else could see me. Why stop the flood? I released the tears and almost immediately, the experience heightened then calmed. No shame, a paused inner critic, the emotion released, and I moved on.
To be honest, initially I questioned the truth of what happened.
Wait, usually tears are uncomfortable, and even hurt my face!
But what if that pain is self-induced discomfort? What other experiences do I make more uncomfortable without even noticing? For me, what comes to mind is sitting in the inevitable traffic jam (cue Alanis), pushing my body to write or read for too long without a break, or waiting to eat a snack because I’m “busy,” even though my body is craving nutrients (right now actually, so be right back).
Okay, much better! So, what I’m learning is that as I take the time to stay and align myself rather than pushing aside sensations, I can identify what causes anxiety and anger more effectively. I don’t feel as confused or overwhelmed when those emotions arise because I see where they’re coming from. So, I also know how to address the feeling, or who to talk to for help.
In addition to Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy (CBT)*, chronic pain support groups, Wim Hof breathwork, and NUSHU Groups, some books that helped me tremendously with the ongoing process of synchronizing my life are:
- The Gifts of Imperfections, Brené Brown
- Just Breathe, Dan Brulé
- Taking the Leap, Pema Chödrön
- How to Stop Feeling Like Shit, Andrea Owen
What resources helped you find alignment? Which ones are you eager to explore?
*The content is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions you may have regarding a medical condition.
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